Tuesday, March 31, 2009

New April's Eve Resolution

The following are things I would like to start doing. There may be additions to the list, suggestions are welcome.

1. Learn to sail
2. Purchase (or better, receive) a bike
3. Bike ride more often
4. Start climbing outdoors
5. Volunteer more
6. Voy a hablar más español

Seems do-able.

Added resolutions de Katie:

7.   Go to Panama
8.   Buy more clothes...impulsive shopping....it helps, believe it or not:)
9.   Stay at Katie's this weekend
10. Hang out with Katie's friends ;) wink wink
11. Transition to drinking Diet Coke
12. Go beach camping
13. Go to the lake with us.....to your parents house
14. Go rollerblading with Katie
15. Color/paint more
16. Go hiking
17. Go to CCV with Katie EVERY SUNDAY NIGHT!

Responses to suggestions de Katie:

7.  Yes please.
8.  Only if you pick them out (I don't have a fashionable eye)
9.  DONE 
10. Literally "LOL" wink wink ;)
12. Hoy voy a planear
13. Fo' sho'
14. I only have Britney Spears roller skates, does that count? (p.s.-I know having these go against all my feminist ideals, you don't need to bring up the hypocrisy, I already know)
15. I'm down
16. Ummm.....let me get back to you
17. I'm there dude

Monday, March 30, 2009


I feel blue. It's hard to try to gain new friends and new experiences without holding onto some form of the memories I already have of.....well, almost everything: The smell of flowers, the look of the clouds, the smell of the ocean or the meow of a cat. I know new memories will take the place of the old, it's happened all before. But in my weakest moments I question whether or not I want to replace those memories. This brings me to the question: What does it mean to guard my heart? In sharing life with someone what are the boundaries? We know the physical boundaries but what about emotional intimacy boundaries? How can I share my life with someone and make a commitment without bearing my soul, and in the same respect have them bear theirs? How can I let someone know me so intimately while still guarding my heart. This seems impossible, but I guess I'm equivocating guarding my "holy" heart with guarding my "human love" heart. 

Wow, I am now reminded of a quote by Henri Nouwen, "The more people you love, the more pain you may experience. For the great mystery of love is that while it can be received, it can also be rejected. Every time you love you enter into the risk of love." It reminds me of God's love for me, while He chooses to love me, I reject him over and over again. His ultimate action of dying on the cross was a suffering of love. I guess love is willing to suffer the pains for one another. I pray I don't fear the suffering so much that I refuse to love.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

"You can either but clothes or buy pictures," she said. "It's that simple. No one who is not very rich can do both. Pay no attention to your clothes and no attention at all to the mode, and buy your clothes for comfort and durability, and you will have the clothes money to buy pictures." -Miss Stein in A Moveable Feast by Ernest Hemingway

This snipit was one of many that caught my eye today while waiting to get my blood drawn(which was awesome by the way). You can easily insert food for pictures in my case, I like art but I LOVE food. The way Hemingway describes oysters makes me want to slurp one down myself. Anyone who knows me knows that would make me puke.